10 weeks?!

How is it that my amazing baby girl is already ten weeks old? I try so hard to remember every little moment with Sarah that I think I forget to live every moment with Sarah, does this make sense? I think a mom tries so hard to do it all that by default our minds are constantly in motion, never on the moment at hand. I stare at Sarah and instead of just being there in the moment my mind is elsewhere.... Does she have my nose? Will her thrush ever clear up? Did I put the clothes in the dryer?.... And so on. When I was trying to make her I took a meditation class that focused on being in the moment, staying present, I got pretty good at it and then lost it, it requires much practice and I got lazy. I think I'm going to give it another try, I want to be present in my kids life. Kids don't need to practice this, they don't know any other way of life then the here and now, I want to share this with Sarah, to learn it through her. She's pretty good at it, I'll
be nursing her in the back seat, in the Target parking lot just to soothe her before heading home and she would stay there all day, not a care in the world, no care that mama is showing off her goods for all to see. She is in each moment as is, where did we loose this as an adult? When did laundry, next weeks appointment, oil changes become the focus of our thoughts? I can't wait to learn all things Sarah will teach me, to relearn the importance in life, I've never been good at doing laundry anyway.