Ok So I haven't finished your birth story yet, I want it to be perfect and with all the detail that went into that day. In the mean time, your over 2 weeks old, 2 weeks, where did the time go? Have a breathed you in enough, have I kissed you, studied you loved you enough in your first 2 weeks? I feel like I need to be perfect for you, to know you and know what you need and I often feel like I don't. I'm trying to get to know your cries, your faces and even your grunts, your very grunty, especially when you sleep and especially when you are starting to wake up in the morning. You have done a lot of changing in 2 weeks, you don't cry with diaper changes like you did your first few days of life, you are starting to focus on things, you love to stare out the window and you love to look at me, even when I'm sobbing on the floor with you trying to understand what you need. You love the boob, in fact that's really all you want from me these days, it's ok I'm happy I can give it to you, I do wish I could get you to sleep like your papa can, I tried all day today and couldn't, your dad gets home and your asleep in 20 minutes, but that's ok, as long as I have the boobs I feel very needed!
Your face is changing a little, I think your looking more like your papa, and you seem to be getting longer, and holding your head up a little longer at a time. I am with you more then anyone and yet it all seems to be going by so fast, people warned me of this and I'm starting to understand it, I can't wait to see you grow up and see all your milestones, and at the same time I want to keep you my tiny little baby girl, weird uh?
I hope to figure out this mom thing soon, I seem to get frustrated easily, something I hope you don't get from me! I just wish I always knew what you needed, something I'm sure most new moms wish for. I love you more then I thought I could, you are amazing Sarah and I am blessed to be your mom. Thank you for being our take home baby, we are so lucky you chose us!
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